Hello
For six years, I was a full-time carer for my dad and I do mean full-time.
For eight years after that, I was trying to survive the grief that caregiving left behind — the burnout, the identity loss, the exhaustion, the guilt, the anger, and the emptiness.
My Story
For six years, I was a full-time carer for my dad.
It was my whole life.
Somehow, in the middle of all of that, I managed to get a Master’s-level teaching qualification. I still don’t fully understand how—I just kept going because there wasn’t another option.
When my dad passed away in 2017, everything inside me collapsed.
I’ve described it like this before:
I was like a bird that had lived in a cage for so long that when the door finally opened… I couldn’t leave.
I didn’t know how to exist outside of that life.
Not long after, I was diagnosed with severe agoraphobia, OCD, anxiety, depression, and PTSD.
I went from holding everything together to barely being able to leave my house.
I tried to rebuild.
I started a candle business.
I filmed YouTube videos.
I began building a small community.
But my OCD hit a level I’d never experienced before, and I ended up under the crisis care team.
That was my rock bottom.
So we moved to rural Scotland—slower, safer.
And I love it here.
But the truth is… geography doesn’t cure mental illness.
I still live with agoraphobia and OCD every single day.
That’s why I had to find a different way to live.
A traditional job just isn’t possible for me—not with the life I live and the things I deal with.
So I started learning how to make money from home. One step at a time.
Just as someone trying to build a life that actually works.
And that’s where everything started to shift.
Now, I’m rebuilding my life from a 180-year-old cottage near the sea in Scotland.
I’m learning how to:
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build income streams from home through digital products amongst other things
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renovate and restore an old cottage
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grow my own food and create a small homestead
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take care of my health and lose weight
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and return to writing—finishing my first novel in over 10 years
This website is where I document all of it.
What it actually looks like to start again when life doesn’t go the way you expected.
Everything I share comes from lived experience.
If you feel stuck, limited, or overwhelmed by your circumstances…
I understand that more than I can explain.
And everything I’m building here is for people like us.
Thank you for being here.